Buuuu~

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it took one week and 4 unanswered phone calls for tao to realize that baekhyun was avoiding him. he supposed that answered the question of whether or not baekhyun remembered their call that night.

baekhyun’s absence bothered him more than he thought it would. they had gone longer than this without speaking but that was before. and tao found himself missing, not only the late-night calls full of moans and and whispers, but the regular calls as well, when baekhyun laughed at his stupid jokes and eagerly filled tao in on every detail of his life.

and tao knew that was the real problem. he had never really thought that he could avoid developing feeling for baekhyun who was thoughtful and funny and spoke to tao as though he were someone important. when sex was added in, baekhyun had become everything tao wanted and never knew he needed. 

but none of that was real. a dozen phonecalls when drunk didn’t equal to baekhyun having an interest in tao beyond an occasional casual fantasy. sometimes people wanted things when they were drunk that they didn’t want when they were sober. tao thought that he just must be one of those things for baekhyun.

-

four days later, tao and the rest of his group flew back to korea. it was his first time returning since the thing with baekhyun had started. he wasn’t sure that he was ready to deal with seeing baekhyun, especially when they still weren’t speaking. he had accepted the idea of rejection long earlier in his mind but the reality of baekhyun’s absence from his life was more difficult than he’d anticipated.

he hadn’t told anyone else about any of it, the ignored calls, tao’s feelings and especially not the phone calls that had gone on before. he suspected that minseok knew at least some of it because tao had never been especially good at hiding things. but thankfully his roommate said nothing.

the return to their dorm was anticlimactic, with k out doing activities on their own. tao was grateful for the extra time to prepare for seeing baekhyun. he hoped that they would be able to put the awkwardness aside and return to how things had been before that first drunken call. he’d always appreciated the casual ease of their friendship and hoped that he hadn’t lost that by taking advantage of baekhyun’s drunken honesty.

he laid down in bed and waited for baekhyun’s return and for himself to figure out a way to fix all of it.

-

he snapped out of his nap when his phone rang beside his head. he stared blankly at the display reading 白贤before fumbling to answer it.

“baixian” he said, trying to calm his racing heartbeat.

“tao” baekhyun answered hesitantly “i think we need to talk”

“where are you?”

“the dorm. everyone else is down here. but i thought we should probably talk alone.”

tao sat up in bed and rubbed the sleep from his eyes. he wasn’t sure that he was ready for this conversation with baekhyun, but he didn’t think he would ever really be ready and it was something that needed to happen.

“okay. give me like five minutes and then come up” he said. baekhyun agreed and hung up.

tao thought it was a bit absurd to be sorting through his luggage, trying to find something he looked good in to wear for what would most likely be a crushing rejection. but that whisper of what if lingered at the edge of his thoughts as he washed his face and put on his nicest trousers.

he’d almost convinced himself that he was ready when baekhyun knocked.

“hi” he said softly as he opened the door and looked down at baekhyun who looked almost as nervous as he felt. 

he’d always wanted baekhyun, had looked at him and seen someone that he wanted to taste and touch, but it was so much stronger now. this wasn’t just baekhyun, his fun korean friend with the beautiful smile. this was baixian, who had fingered his own ass while pretending it was tao fucking him.

“come in” he said, holding the door open for baekhyun to enter. baekhyun brushed lightly against tao as he came inside and they both flinched from the contact.

“sorry” baekhyun muttered, half-lifting a hand toward tao and then awkwardly dropping it.

they stayed in silence as tao led them to his room and closed the door behind them. it wasn’t the most ideal place for this kind of conversation but they were less likely to be interrupted in here. he hesitated a moment and then locked the door before turning to face baekhyun.

“i’m sor-”

“i wasn’t drunk” baekhyun cut him off.

tao stared at him blankly, unsure of what to say. that wasn’t what he had anticipated hearing.

“that last time” baekhyun continued “i knew i kept calling you when i was drunk and chanyeol kept saying these stupid things and i was curious. so i called and told you i was drinking and then...”

“oh” tao said. no wonder that last call had been so different.

“i’m sorry i’ve been ignoring you”

“you don’t have to-”

“i’ve had to do a lot of thinking. i needed to figure some things out”

tao stepped forward to lay a hand on baekhyun’s shoulder. baekhyun jerked his head up, eyes wide and nervous.

“i’m sorry” tao said “i took advantage. i wanted... i liked having you want me.”

“did i...” baekhyun trailed off, shoulder tensing under tao’s palm “what did i say? in the other calls. did i talk about...me? what i want?”

“no. it was just... sex”

baekhyun flinched at the word and dropped his gaze to the ground.

“i’m not like that normally” he said “i don’t do things like that. it’s just you”

“i don’t either. i wouldn’t have done that with anyone else. but i want you. and you wanted me and even if it was only when you were drunk it was still you wanting me and i let it go too far. i was selfish.”

tao was startled by the feeling of baekhyun’s fingers soft against his cheek.

“not only when i’m drunk” baekhyun said softly, looking back into tao’s eyes “i want you always”

tao had a thousand things to say to that but he was silenced by the slide of baekhyun’s lips against his own. there were so many reasons for why they shouldn’t do this but as baekhyun licked his way into tao’s mouth he couldn’t think of anything else he’d rather do. baekhyun melted against him, leaning up to wrap an arm around tao’s neck to pull him closer.

“is this okay” he whispered against tao’s lips. his face was flushed, mouth red and slick. “please tell me this is okay”

“yes” tao breathed, pulling baekhyun’s lips back to his. he had always wanted to kiss baekhyun who had the most beautiful mouth he’d ever seen. the reality was so much better than anything he had ever imagined, baekhyun’s tongue quick and hot, his lips smooth and wet. his fingers teased under the edge of baekhyun’s shirt as they kissed and baekhyun groaned.

“off” he said, gripping a hand in tao’s shirt. tao quickly pulled off his shirt as baekhyun took care of his own. they tossed them carelessly to the floor and simply looked at each other.

“i love your body” baekhyun rasped, reaching out to lightly rake his nails down tao’s abs. then they fell back together, mouths open and devouring, as their fingers raced over bared skin. baekhyun pulled tao to the bed and fell back onto it, pulling tao down on top of him.

“i want you to fuck me” he whispered and tao shivered as the words caressed his skin.

tao’s fingers fumbled for baekhyun’s waistband and he dragged his pants down, leaving baekhyun naked under him.

“fuck” he whispered as he took in the sight of baekhyun’s smooth white skin and hard cock.

“please” baekhyun begged, reaching for tao’s zipper but tao pulled away.

“let me...” he trailed off as he gripped baekhyun’s cock and leaned down to lick across the head. baekhyun moaned and jerked under him, but tao held his hips down as he tasted him. he sucked baekhyun’s cock inside his mouth, tongue tracing up the underside. baekhyun threaded fingers through tao’s hair and pulled his head up, away from his cock.

“fuck me” he demanded, eyes dark, and tao shuddered at the intensity in them. he hurriedly stripped off his trouser and leaned back down to press their naked bodies together. their cocks rubbed together as tao pressed open-mouthed kisses down baekhyun’s neck and licked designs into his collarbones.

“tao please” baekhyun begged and tao pulled back to look down at him. he was flushed and beautiful and more than anything tao had ever expected.

“i don’t have anything” he said, looking at his still unpacked luggage leaning against the wall. “fuck. baekhyun, i don’t have anything”

“it’s okay” baekhyun said, grabbing tao’s hand and bringing it to his lips “you were right before. i like the burn.” and then he sucked tao’s fingers into his mouth, tongue darting between them, getting them slick. tao groaned as baekhyun teased him with tongue and teeth, fingers dripping wet when baekhyun finally released them.

baekhyun choked back a gasp as tao pressed a finger inside him. it slid in easier than tao expected. he fucked his finger in and out a few times as baekhyun dug his heels into the bed.

“another one” baekhyun demanded

“are you-”

“i’ve been practicing” baekhyun gasped “since the call. every night. pretending it was you.”

tao growled and captured baekhyun’s panting mouth with his own as he carefully pressed a second finger inside. he could see it in his head, baekhyun stretching himself open every night, waiting for tao’s cock. he twisted his fingers harshly into baekhyun and swallowed his gasps and moans. he tried to take his time stretching him but baekhyun was impatient, digging fingers into tao’s back, pulling on his hair, thrusting up against him.

“i’m ready” baekhyun panted “tao, please. fuck me”

tao reluctantly moved back, pulling his fingers free.

“you need to get me wet” he said and baekhyun smirked as he pulled tao by his hips up to his face.

“okay” he said and then swallowed tao’s cock into his wet mouth. tao hissed and clenched his fists, forcing himself not to thrust forward into baekhyun’s throat. it was over too quickly, baekhyun barely teasing him with his tongue before pulling away and releasing him, saliva dripping down over his balls.

“fuck” he muttered

“please” baekhyun replied

he slid back down the bed, between baekhyun’s open legs and paused, cock pressed lightly against his entrance.

“i’m sure” baekhyun said, before tao could ask “really sure”

he broke off into a gasp as tao pushed forward, slowly sliding his cock inside. it was almost too tight and just barely slick enough and baekhyun burned around him. he leaned down to swallow baekhyun’s moans as he pulled back and fucked forward again in a long, slow rhythm. 

baekhyun’s nails dug into his back, harder with every thrust until he was sure they were drawing blood. he liked the thought of that, wearing the marks of baekhyun’s passion on his skin. baekhyun gasped into his mouth as tao reached for his cock, slick with sweat and precum.

“tao please” he said, clenching tightly around tao’s cock and suddenly it was too much. 

“baixian” he whispered as he came and baekhyun’s cock jerked in his hand, spilling come hot against his fingers.

they lay there for a moment, sweat cooling on their bodies, before tao reluctantly pulled out of baekhyun. he grabbed the box of tissue from his bedside and carefully cleaned them both up as well as he could.

“so” baekhyun said after too many minutes of silence

“so.” tao replied

“i’ve sort of liked you for a long time”

tao felt his heartbeat quicken in his chest.

“i’ve sort of liked you too” he replied. it didn’t come close to describing how he really felt toward baekhyun but it was enough for now.

“i’m glad” baekhyun said, smiling lazily and tao leaned down to taste his lips again.they had plenty of time for talking later.

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